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Alright, so I suck at this blogging thing.  I never feel like I have anything worthwhile to say, so I lurk around, read other’s blogs etc..

So, I’m down 37 lbs..which is great, but it’s been slow going.  Some clothes are starting to fit much better, and be more comfortable..and I’m afraid that I’m letting myself BECOME comfortable, which will be detrimental to my weight loss journey.  Eating healthy has gotten more difficult..to keep the story short, hubby is making LESS than before, but groceries, gas etc are more expensive..  I find myself making sure that hubby and the kids have what they need first, and if there is enough for  me to get the healthy stuff then I do..but if not..then I have to figure out how to eat what they are.

I’m sooooo sick of dropping a few pounds, to only regain them plus some extra… I don’t want to do that this time!!!!!  I’ve quit coming on buddyslim as often, quit journalling, and have let up on my water intake… it’s time to change..time to regain control!!

(thanks for letting me vent! ;)  )

So, I’ve faithfully been back at it since May of this year.. and I’ve had some results..I’m down 17.5 lbs..slow, but at least I’m down. I took some pics, and I don’t really see much of a difference yet, so I havent posted them..maybe next month’s will show more. I do however notice a difference in some of my clothes..which is a nice feeling, and I’ve had some friends tell me that they see I’m losing..guess we are harder on ourselves eh?

I haven’t blogged recently cause I just don’t feel like I have anything worthwhile to say.. life has been kinda hectic..hubby still hasn’t found work since graduating his upgrading at college.. and I think that is why he is so moody..and least I hope thats the reason! grrrrr!

I love reading everyone else’s blogs though..it helps to keep me motivated!!! Thanks for being open and honest everyone!!!!!

So, I’m not very good at keeping up  my blogs..this part of things is new to me, and I always wonder if I really have anything worthwhile to say.

I love however, to read others blogs..and celebrate their victories with them, and cheer them on along the way!

I was looking through my food journal today, and noticed that I have stayed on track for a little over 2 months this time! That is a big step for me..I normal get all psyched up, then fall off the wagon real soon.  I’m hoping I’m different this time…I know I REALLY want this ! I’d love to see the 4 and 5 lb losses every week..but that isn’t happening..1.5 - 2 is about norm so far for me..and at least it’s in the right direction!

Nobody forced me to allow myself to get to where I am today…and nobody can force me to take it all off either..it’s gotta be me, my decision..and ya, I wanna lose weight to be there for my kids and hubby, to do more with them..but this has to be for ME or it won’t amount to anything.  It’s me that I fail when I give in to the junk, it’s ME that I fail when I chose not to exercise, and it’s ME that will benefit when i get it right!!

I want this! I wanna be able to walk into any store and buy an outfit, without only going to the “big girl” shops.. I wanna be able to run and play with my kids.. to walk up those stupid stairs without thinking I’m gonna pass out somewhere..and to go down the flight of stairs without worrying that my knee is gonna give out! I don’t want to have to wear bicycle shorts under skirts to keep my thighs from chaffing!  I don’t want to worry whether my big butt will fit in the stupid seats at the movies, and on the rides my kids want to go on!  I don’t want to feel the stares from people, knowing I’m the biggest person in the room!

It’s all choices..I can choose to quit and be miserable.. or I can choose to work my friggin’ butt off..and suceed! Are ya comin’ with me?!?!?!

So I’ve noticed how many of you post your progress pics..with 2,3,4 pics side by side..and it looks great! How do you do that??!!

Thanks!!

I already shared this in my forum..but my husband made my day today. We were rushing around this morning trying to get everyone ready and out the door on time, when he stopped me in the hall, wrapped his arms around me to give me a big hug. He pauses, and whispers in my ear “Wow, I can really tell that you’re losing some weight!” ~Made my day! I’m so blessed that he notices the little things.. he has never harped at me about my weight or anything..in fact, even at my heaviest he’d ask for ‘lingerie’..when I couldn’t bear the thoughts of putting it on!!!

So it was a definitely positive way to start my week!!

So today is my mom’s birthday.  Her favourite restaurant is a little chinese food place. Now I know that chinese food isn’t the wisest choice when trying to lose weight..but this is a journey that we are going to have to learn to deal with different situations.

I’ve planned ahead.. I’ve eaten well all week..haven’t touched my flex points at all!  Today, I’m staying as low points as possible, without being hungry..I brought lots of raw veggies and fruits to work today to snack on..and am drinking lots of water!  At dinner, I plan on having 1 egg roll (instead of the usual 2 that I would order…this man makes the absolute BEST egg rolls I’ve ever eaten)..lots of veggies, and little bits of the other dishes (chicken balls, rice…etc) That way I can still enjoy the different dishes, without eating as much of the “bad” things…. Lots of water is in the forecast for this evening, and tomorrow!

Hi gang, I’m considering joining Weight Watchers Online, because the only meetings in my area, conflict my schedule!

So, on the WW site, it says they are coming out with a mobile app for Blackberry’s..SOON.. any idea when? 

Is anyone here on the online program? and if so …do you like it??

 Thanks in advance for the feedback!

So it’s my second day trying to get back into the groove of things… I have a bad habit when I’m not trying to eat healthy, I quite often won’t eat throughout the day.. coffee on my way to work, then often I won’t eat until supper..which of course I’m starving, so I don’t care about portions or anything. Then snack at night.

So today, I left a few minutes early and swung by my local grocery store. I grabbed a yogurt/berries/granola for breaky, and a salad, skipped the dressing and used cottage cheese instead for lunch. I’m currently swigging back my 8th glass of water… so I’m getting there.  (Supper wasn’t so wonderful.. I had some casserole  which has ground beef, canned potatoes and creamy soups..and a very small sliver of hubby’s birthday cake…)but overall it wasn’t a bad day! Wasn’t great..but certainly not my worst!!

I really need to go grocery shopping and stock up on some healthy stuff for myself!

Ugh! I was sooo disappointed.. i bought some new yogurts in the States the other day, and only bought a couple of each flavour because  I wasn’t sure i’d like them.. so yesterday I had the white chocolate raspberry one..and it was heavenly… so this morning I was all psyched to grab the other one to take to work..and oh yeah - my son ate it!!!!!!  (now I’m glad he likes yogurt..but it was mine, ya know? LOL!)

Alright!! I know I disappeared for a while.. but I’m logged in, and trying to help motivate and cheer on my buddies.. I’ve tried posting on 3 or 4 blogs, and my comments don’t show up!! Anybody know how to fix this?!?!

Thanks!

This is crazy!! It’s been a year since I’ve checked in here…not that my buddies weren’t supportive..but that I was ashamed and disappointed with myself for not doing what I need to do.  For 16 years I’ve been yo-yo-ing..up 10lbs, down 12..up 30lbs down 10..108lbs heavier..and miserable.

So where to start? What program, of the many I’ve tried - do I follow?? Haven’t decided..but knew this morning that I have to start blogging and reading on Buddyslim again..you guys motivate me, and show me that I’m not alone..we all struggle, I know that..this isn’t easy, or we’d all be skinny right now! 

So I’ll be snooping around the site again..trying to find my motivation to yet again, start this difficult journey…  haven’t even had the courage to weigh-in……